Big Enough For The Both Of Us

This is intended for everyone who has a better older or younger sibling. It is to show that even though you might feel like this (consciously or not), if you start saying "I will" instead of "I can" or "I might", you'll get to stand on that platform too.




He was standing at the top of the cliff, looking up at the serene blue sky as a tranquil smile spread over his face.

It was always like this. He would stand ahead of me - above me, and leave nothing except the dust swirling around my legs. But he's my older brother, of course he would be better than me in every way. I've come to accept that, bearing the name of "younger brother". Already, it has become the norm for me to hear how much better he is compared to me, how I should be as successful as he is or as great and moral. By now, nearing my thirties, I should have gotten over it, right?

So why do I still feel like throttling his neck every time I realize how much better he is?

I shouldn't feel this way; I know I shouldn't. Kaine has been nothing but the best to me, treating me as his equal no matter anything anyone else says otherwise. But maybe that's the reason I feel like this. Maybe if Kaine treated me like dirt, kept telling me how much more superior he was to me, maybe I could be able to get past it. Because I would know he wasn't that great if he acted like an egotistical idiot.

Maybe. But the fact of the matter is he doesn't act like that. He's like the perfect son, the perfect boss, the perfect husband, the perfect father, the perfect brother. And here I stand, just below him on these rocky cliffs looking up and wondering when I would be able to stand beside him instead of behind him. That is... if I could even do that at all.

The platform he was standing on looked like it was only for one person. It was like the universe telling me it was my fate to follow behind Kaine for the rest of my life... but I don't want that, and I'm positive Kaine wouldn't want that either.

So I don't care what it takes. Platform... you will be big enough for the both of us!